To the Green-eyed Lovebird:
We met fifteen years ago, almost to the day, when I moved my stuff into the NYU dorm room next to yours at Senior House.
You called us fast friends. I like to think it was more.
We lived on nothing but the excitement of finding ourselves through music (you were obsessed with Jeff Buckley), photography (I couldn’t stop taking pictures of you), hanging out in Washington Square Park, and all the weird things we did to make money. I learned more about myself that year than any other.
Yet, somehow, it all fell apart. We lost touch the summer after graduation when I went to South America to work for National Geographic. When I came back, you were gone. A part of me still wonders if I pushed you too hard after the wedding…
I didn’t see you again until a month ago. It was a Wednesday. You were rocking back on your heels, balancing on that thick yellow line that runs along the subway platform, waiting for the F train. I didn’t know it was you until it was too late, and then you were gone. Again. You said my name; I saw it on your lips. I tried to will the train to stop, just so I could say hello.
After seeing you, all of the youthful feelings and memories came flooding back to me, and now I’ve spent the better part of a month wondering what your life is like. I might be totally out of my mind, but would you like to get a drink with me and catch up on the last decade and a half?
A heart wrenching beautiful story of the complicated relationship between life and timing. This book tugged my heart strings in a thousand different directions.
It's told in two different POVs (which i love) and in the present and the past. Matt and Grace's incredible relationship is the complete definition of first love. When you're going through your day and wish the other person was there with you. When something happens and you immediately want to tell them about it. When you were with that person all day and as soon as they leave, you miss them. All the possibilities, insecurities, hopes, and dreams that come with a first love were covered.
You can find someone who really understands you, to your core. A person who complements your being so perfectly that you can never imagine being without them. However, things happen...life happens and sometimes the timing just isn't right. Sometimes you meet your soulmate too early on, in the midst of a transitioning period in your life. However, when you are truly meant to be with someone, you'll find your way back to one another (Im a strong believer in this).
This second-chance love story made me laugh, smile, and cry. Carlino's writing is effortless and moving. The characters were so lovable and unique in their own ways. This book broke my heart and then proceeded to put all the pieces back together.
“You can’t re-create the first time you promise to love someone or the first time you feel loved by another. You cannot relive the sensation of fear, admiration, self-consciousness, passion, and desire all mixed into one because it never happens twice. You chase it like the first high for the rest of your life. It doesn’t mean you can’t love another or move on; it just means that the one spontaneous moment, the split second that you took the leap, when your heart was racing and your mind was muddled with What ifs?—that moment—will never happen the same way again. It will never feel as intense as the first time. At least, that’s the way I remember it. That’s why my mother always said we memorialize our past. Everything seems better in a memory.”
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